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Thursday, June 19th, 2003
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Wow, I don't even know where to begin, school is finally over and I aint got shit to do. Damn, I am still in cali for these last short couple of weeks, never thought it would come this soon. I am so glad though. for once i am able to get away from these fake stupid girls and these boys that don't know how to act right. but whatever...so i have been spending a lot of time with SABY, NENE, MELY, J.LO, you know the whole shit load...=) it's fun. i never thought i'd go back to kicken it with them the way i have been but its been super fun! speaking of super, it all started jan 25 when we met lil j at mission beach oh lord he's sexy! wooha.. yeah all thanks to saby and her how bout it's and nene "oh my gosh it's lil j!!!!" lol but ever since then we have been kicken it like almost everyday. and my sister ZELENE she's great, there are so many people i am going to miss. tawnee and all them "fam" haha haven't even called me. i asked em to go out but they cant and you know well whatever it isn't much i am asking but i won't get into all that i am just going to get even more pissed off than i need to be. i am talking to a few people...=) but i am not sure since i am leaving soon i dunno if its worth it. we'll see it is weird cuz of course once them dirty ol' boys know your leaving and won't be back, then they want to talk to you and shit, naw forget that see ya later! ha but well i have said too much already, gotta go...
One love
J
p.s.
Keith good luck on this marriage....what happened to ours??
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It is so amazing that I am actually writing in here. I know it has been a really long time. I just have been going through some crazy ol' times. I now live away from Tierrasanta thank god, and I am now closer to all my girls. YAY...so i have been through a lot and i am not sure how to handle it anymore. i can't write much, people around so ill be back later!
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Today I finally went back to school and I dunno what happened. It went by so fast. I don't think I missed that much,which seems to be good for me. Yeah, well since Candra got her license, I knew she would want to ditch of course, but I really didn't want her too. I mean come on you have been absent for a week and are failing all your classes anyway, wouldn't you want to make some attempt to get at least some of em up? But no, she left. Whatever I don't know why I bother anymore. So, I am really happy cuz Alyssa and I are becoming better friends. I mean we were always friends but now we are best-est-est-est friends...(smile) And Nicky T wow, let's just say I am very upset at for encouraging Candy to go. But yea, Lyss, Thursday aftersxool, it's on. =) Shh, secrets..haha. I am so ready to get out of san diego, already. but what sucks is i have to take p.e. all over again MY SENIOR YEAR because my credits don't transfer over. Sux huh? RANDOM! But, I saw pictures of my new house, aww I am getting so sad. It's cool, but you know, not wanting to leave any of my friends is starting to hit me more and more each day. I went to the doctor today, everything is going well. So, Keith this is just for you, Why must everything be so complicated between us? I just don't understand. I want to be close I mean come on we have talked about it so many times but I think we need to talk about a lot more important things before we jump into well you know all the other stuff. I love the way you talk to me and make me smile, I love the way you make me feel special even after all those stupid little fights, but most of all I love the way you are just you...
Keep it real
*Jen
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This weekend was so long it was rediculous, I cannot believe the stress moving puts on you. Plus I had my little cousin here just bothering us. I mean of course it is good to see her, but at 5 there isnt much for her to do while we are busy packing. I dunno, then in life, everyone is just growing further and further apart in our group and it is so sad, but you know they say you find who your true friends are in high school. wonder who those few are going to be, I can take a wild guess but I dont think I want to share those quite yet. People use each other for the stupidest reasons and it starts to get old after a while. Lies are floating here and there. Why do people feel they have to lie. Especially these janky ass boys. I mean they try and try and want and want but then they pull the stupidest shit. Ugh, whatever I'm leaving and half these boys I probably will never talk to again so, whatever that's what I have to say about that. I have my doctors appointment tomorrow, I'm scared, I gotta go all alone and discuss test results, it's like I'm all on my own. I guess I gotta learn sometime huh? Yeah. So usually I don't get along with many girls, they are shady and bitchy and ugh think they are so cute, when in reality, lol they aren't, but these past few days I have met my homeboys girl, when at first we were having problems but then found out we have a lot in common. Pretty sick, you know one in a million girls I can actually relate to...Well, I am tired and I cannot stand this bright ass computer screen so I'm out...
The one and only,
*J*
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So I am tired of being sick, I cannot stand it anymore! I have been home from school for 4 days now and I miss my buddies! Candra and Jess are the only ones who have talked to me, excpet Kaitlyn called but I didn't get to talk. They probably drank without me! LOL huh girls? Strange things are going on. Stupid ex-friend wrote me a letter saying he misses me, ha then then why does he have like six other girls who are hangin up on me when I called? Stupid! Boys will never grow up I swear, no matter how old they are, they play games. And for once I don't want to play these stupid games back, and I am left alone. I guess it is better that way cuz if it wasn't it would end up a disaster like other relationships I have been in. Sometimes I can't stand boys, they just get so rude and cocky. shit! An angel wrote me today wonder who that is?....=)
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Everything in my life as of this moment fucking sucks. I feel like there is no fuckin reason for me to even be in this world to have to fuckin deal with all this shit. i hate it all, i fuckin hate school and all the fuckin lyin ass trick bitches that go there, i hate that fact that the rent side of my family is being so gay i want to kill em, not literally, but shit i mean it is so fuckin stupid. I went to take my driving test on wednesday and at night i am supposed to wear my glasses, we on my stupid ass permit it says that i have to fuckin wear em and i didnt take em cuz it wasnt night time so i couldn't take the dumb test, well now, i have an appt for tomorrow but the rents are like oh well i dont know if we can take you. im like are you f*in kidding me? after all this shit, fuck. so as you can tell i am pretty pissed. And at school oh shit grades are F*in horrible, i swear, they suck so bad that i just want to drop out of school now. I really do!! Then with our fucked up group, a stupid someone...had to go open their BIG ASS MOUTH and say shit to other people, that in fact she was saying about them at the same time. Fuck! and who cares if i go somewhere with alyssa or i look at something that isnt even yours...WHO REALLY CARES? shit so fuck you and dont ever bother talking to me again, and i bet you know who you are too! so whatever...i hope you do read this, then you'll know that i really can say that i hate you so fuck off. =) well i am pissed so i am leaving now, ill write another entry later. I LOVE YOU ALYSSA!!!!
JENNA
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Today was so great, well for a while =) I went to school nervous as hell to take my test, and then Kaitlyn was my life saver and took me to take my test. I was so scared that they would punk out and not let me take my test again. But I went and I got it! Turns out that my driver guy test man was OSCAR MARTINEZ's dad, so I'm like alright I think I got this...so I go to take Kaitlyn home, lol and she lives out in El Cajon so its like 415 and i gotta be home by 530 to go out with my rents, so with my luck that day, I got lost on the way home. GREAT! So I go to my best friends house and chill there for a while. By this time its like 545 so I got home and we left to eat. It was fun but then again scary cuz I didn't know where I was at. But you know, it's cool. I had fun some laughs about my first day of having my license. I'm supposed to go back to her house today, and yes I know where I am going this time! =) lol...But I really don't have much else to say so I'll write later...BYE
The one and only,
Nenna
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Thursday, March 6th, 2003
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It's my baby girl's birthday today, and she's sick =( she went to the hospital and everything! Poor baby. As well, I have been sick. I hate it, I haven't been to school in like 3 days, probably missed a lot of things, but I really don't care. I want school to be over so bad it's rediculous. Tomorrow is my sissy's 23 birthday yay! She got a new bug so i am going to get her honda..ahhh, great. No not really we are gunna sell it so i can FINALLY ge a truck! A f150...and for all those girls who think they can ride, lol you don't know shit! I have 20 more days in this house and i am actually excited. My best friend Christina is going to move out there in a year to live with me and go to college together! I am looking forward to that. I'm upset to see many things happening to my friends but i am going to keep my mouth shut and let them find out for themselves. Oh yeah and to my Keithy, if you ever decide to talk to me ever, you know where to find me I'll be around for a little while longer! I am going to the doctor today for the many things a have going on in this body of mine so i'll see what all this drama is about. Hopefuly. well i'll leave it on that note, BYE!
None other than,
*J
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Saturday, March 1st, 2003
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So, today all I did was saty home with my mom and pretend to pack! She said we were supposed to but I guess we can't until we get boxes! Uh Duh! So, I guess Ricky can be considered on my bad list for a while, he lied about the stupidest things to my face and put in on his family. What kind of ass does that? I mean he is one of my brest friends and I don't know why he'd do that. Sucks huh? So, anyway, like always when something goes wrong with him, Sarah comes to take me away from it all. I'm going to spend the night with her again, but this time is a little different, her sister is going to be there. I used to be real good friends with her and ever since Sarah turned 20 it all went down hill. But do I care? nope! A certain someone lives around the corner from her and im anxious to go see him! Well, I am going to go now, but i'll probably write again later. Bye!
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Wednesday, February 26th, 2003
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| Subject: | Hmmm.... |
| Time: | 9:44 pm. |
| Mood: |  loved. | | Music: | She can't love you-Destiny's Child. |
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Today was a good day! Finally a day with out drama! yay... My friends are so great. They make me laugh and we have fun together. I took some picture of Rachel, Timmy's little sister, nice! they came out really good! Then Nichole took pictures of me, I hope they came out good. She had me do some really cute poses, and might use em for her portfolio! yay. nobody's ever took pictures of me like that. Thanks nicky! I still feel that crazy strike for love. Like i want it more than i thought. I've heard some bad news i dont think i am going to share, but have to express myself about it. I know it can't be true, I know that he wouldn't do that...it's not him. And her, well no girl should be treated like that but she gets what she did to me so, im sorry for her. what comes around goes around girl and you got it so have fun! (sorry everyone) So im excited to be staying with mama this summer! YAY. and yesterday was a good night, i talked to my marky for the first time in like a month and it was great. then i stayed up till like 11 talkin to ricky, he is great too!!! =) He is having his bonfire this weekend but i dont know if we are going, then candies wants me to have have fun at her house too this weekend before she moves, so jeeez it might mean a little fun for me!! well i think im done for the night so good night! p.s. thanks to those who do love me, you know who you are!!
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Monday, February 24th, 2003
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| Subject: | Random |
| Time: | 11:17 pm. |
| Mood: |  confused. | | Music: | "Real Love"-Mary J.Blige. |
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Today is by far the one day that has thrown me off the most! I don't know why but all day someone's been talking to me about love. Why? Love is a beautiful thing, but jeez I never knew it was going to be so complicated. School today was eh so so it sorta drizzled a little but oh well. My bestest friend hasn't been at school =( not very happy about that one but, you know. I hate that school, more than anything. In a way, I am actually excited to move. I know a lot of my friends are disappointed that I'm going, but I am gunna start the beginning of my new life there. I have so much to look forward to rather than dwell on the shit I have to go through now. I say , forget it all! Of course I am going to miss those select few, but other than that I'm outro! Now, back to this love thing. I am waiting to see what there is in store for me, cuz as of now, I am just sitting here like a fool for someone to come along and take me away into that land where we don't care what other people think and it is just the two of us! I've felt that before, but it walked out of my life within the snap of my fingers...now I am waiting for it to just stroll back in
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| Subject: | To J.C. |
| Time: | 9:50 pm. |
| Mood: |  mellow. | | Music: | "Senorita" by Justin Timberlake. |
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To Jenna, my love. Here is my gift to you. I was glad to be of service. Enjoy your new toy. Bye now.
Love,
David
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